black-diva

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Destiny by black-diva, literature

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Destiny

Moving with each tick, each tock absorbing my soul. Dieing with each exhale it escapes me. Crawling beneath the melanin the tendons Between the marrow searching for a way to be relieved of me. It no longer finds a purpose in me Or I no longer feel the purpose within. Dreams no longer dwell within my eyes It no longer sees me reaching for those platinum and gold waves It no longer exfoliates my mind and pours out my extremities I ask yet no longer will anyone hear me And He will no longer tell, abandoned pleading for guidance He no longer talks to me, refuses to enlighten He wants me to revitalize the rotting consciousness, B

I looked by black-diva, literature

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I looked

I looked into my soul today Climbing above acidic clouds. Into the heavens, to view what God saw everyday. But what arose was the rancid stench of poverty, A deficit of emotions the tragedy is. The maggots feasting at my desolate body, ewwzing out, evaporating into dust, the sanity that once filled my body. Society drugged me with materialistic dreams Raped me of my compassion, my ethics And left me colder than the Sudanese Government. I killed the millions in other countries, because I conformed to this European Mentality. That was forced upon my ancestry. I looked into my soul today Watched dreams arise Just to dissolve befo

Again by black-diva, literature

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Again

Fear swallows every potential word. The very facet of love drowns in the unspoken. Fear of your rejection, produces the hesitation. That causes me to stutter Every time I attempt to mutter. I do's, I love you, lost without you. How does it feel to know you're the better half, That saved me from damnation, lifted me from depression. For me this love is complete ecstasy, And in my mind. I imagine what you say to me. Imagine your arms surrounding me as you spill out Every emotion I'm feeling. Spill out every love you gave me. In my fantasies that's were you take me.

Winter 2006 by black-diva, literature

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Winter 2006

We give up on it so easily. We search for it so thriftlessly. And till today I still can't understand How I could feel, what you couldn't express I guess it's karma cuz I never learned how to love, How to love the one that could haven been more than just a crush. The one that gives me butterflies five years AFTER our first greeting. The one who processes my arms at night and holds me tight as I'm sleeping. Searching for that chance of reuniting. That's why holding on to you meant everything Cuz you woke me up from this dreaming. This depression, this catatonic state. You opened my eyes to the light of living You gave me air worth

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Three's a Crowd by black-diva, literature

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Three's a Crowd

My lover, my crush, my soulmate one enlights, stimulates all the nerves inside my nieve body. One tangles the idea of love like bait Drawing me in but soon to let my go The last has every asspect I need His mind body an dsoul is ultimaly part of me I truely love all three And all three once said they loved me Not just verbally but also emotionally Surrounding me, choking me I feel, see, breath nothing but love The love of two, two meaning me and u NO, the love of two other excluding me Cause I no longer lay next to you You, you, and you, all three of you Threesome should just be my name cause this game is driving me insane My

Purer than White by black-diva, literature

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Purer than White

Emotions swallow the intellagence I want to speak Dreams blind the sight of reality And I, live in a non-existant world Brain washed before my time My color prevents escaping The tyranny of white The sin of greed Certain expectations were destined upon me A country raped, A color disgusted The action of Your forefathers still affect me Split apart to hate They measured our Nose to seperate Witnessing Genocide Why cuz ones lighter on the outside People of color dieing, killin, poverty Unaided by the countries whose history Made their reality Black America sit, watch tv On their knees thanking god "That aint me" Unable to see

Untitled- sorry by black-diva, literature

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Untitled- sorry

I Love only to hate I Love only to break, but Love wont find me But I continue to search for Love And hopefully Love will continue to find me I cried in the name of Love But did Love cry for me? I remeber Love but does Love remeber me? See I never thought I'd fall for Love But all the while Love said it fell for me But was Love a lie? Was I lying to my self, trying to fight Love? But fighting a battle I cant win I now know that I miss Love Now only if I could find out Does LOVE miss me?

My Love, My Heart, My Epiphany by black-diva, literature

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My Love, My Heart, My Epiphany

Scared of ur rejection, but scarred by ur absence I secretly dream about the next time i will see you But fear that you wont need me. As the time went by my heart stopped beating I'm no longer breathing, and CPR can't even resuscitate the heartache you absence has made. I am: Dead, to love, to society, to life I starve, yet surrounded by a buffet of testosterone and cheistry Anorexia keeps me from tasting, though im longing. Our memories keep me fom filling my stomach with the lust it calls for. Letting go of all ambitions, I got to set free from memories, forget the fantasies My future now bleek from the heartache you left i

Unwanted by black-diva, literature

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Unwanted

You cry and I still can't feel your pain As you go day to day with no hope, Dreams, Trying to make it through this cruel reality. Poverty your only means of livin'. A shack with eight kids the only thing you seein'. You dieing from AIDS the only thing your future holds And I can only watch as the cycle unfolds. Reachin' for help but no ones helpin'. Society to self-indulge and the human race is at a steady downfall. Claming were helping oil rich lands. As Africa lays on their back, Violently raped of the chances they have. Trying to make it right with the help of an open hand. But will any

'Rain falling' by black-diva, literature

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'Rain falling'

Rain Falling on my window seal Music playing: "I really like what you done to me. I cant really exlain it. I'm so in to you." Lightining filling the room with gleam Laying on my bed stuck in this daydream Reality finally overtakes me. Stuck in this dismal room. I'm alone: isolated, secluded, unaided, lone, only, solitarty-alone. In darkness, frightened by the silence. All I see is the moon's rays shining on my mournful face. Gazing above for answers. Now looking at a picture of what i lost. Knowing I should believe, But, Please tell me what i need to do. What I need to do to see your face. But knowing in r

Inevitable by black-diva, literature

Complete by black-diva, literature

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Complete

My smile presists to hide it's non exsistance. My laughter embodies only emptiness. And you, are my savor, from my melicholic behavior. Your pain saddenss me cuz your happiness created me. Your love healed my heart so your sorrow weakens my body. 2 in 1 I want to be part of your whole. Incomplete I want to complete your soul Crazy!........I think I'm in love Swore to the heavens above, I'd never fall in love, Again. But you Make me feel Brand New!

A Fool's Fool by black-diva, literature

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A Fool's Fool

Am I a fool For loving you the way I do When all your other groupies say they do too. Stupid, for thinking I was something different, something new. But you were playin' me like you did dem fools But I'm the fool, the king of fools, NO reverse, the queen of fools, the fool who thought she could love and be loved by you The fool who opened her heart to you The fool who forgot past pain for you, the fool who, torn down barriers, built, because of guys like you The fool who glowed day to day, friends thinkin' she's gettin' some "action" because of you. Waking up in the morning dreaming she was next to you The fool who waited every

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The Girl by trueloveiseternal, literature

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The Girl

She lives in a fantasy world in her mind where life is so easy and everything's fine She knows she can't stay there, but she sure as hell tries It's better than facing her own web of lies She hides from her problems and runs from her fears She drowns herself every night in her tears Some call her a coward, some call her insane, I'd like to see them take one half of her pain She runs away, not knowing which way to go She tries so hard, but she just can't let go And all of her lies are getting harder to hide And nobody knows... That she's dying inside She knows that suicide isn't the way, though she thinks of it a

My People by blackintellect, literature

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My People

My People The economic disparity that exists within our minority has led us towards inequity. No chances for prosperity because the lack of opportunity which leads us to hostility, brutality, a harsh reality. Wonder why our children face abandonment? It's the blatant ignorance and diligence of this nation's little tap and dance. A country born on our mother's backs resents us now because we're black. React, attack and then step back, because "it's their problem now" not ours. Cause them as much pain and difficulty as possible, strip them of their dignity and pride, 300 years later it's "sorry" and hide. It ain't about revenge, or to avenge,

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Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: Washington DC
Favourite genre of music: R&B, hip-hop, jazz, rock, reggae, neo-soul, pop, all kinds
MP3 player of choice: ipod video
Favourite cartoon character: Huey from Boondocks
Personal Quote: "Im in love with the idea of being in love"

Favourite Movies

Pulp Fiction, Harlem Nights, MalcomX, Sometimes in April, Meet the Parents I&II

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Bob Marley, All the deep sistahs like Badu, Arie. J.Legend, Luda, Common , L.Park, MY Chem. Romance

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I dont KNow

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Poetry, music, photography

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black-diva

Nov 22, 2008

Long Time....It feels Good

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Wow...those are the only words that come to my mind.  I haven't been active truly active in a year or so.  And with in that time I have grown tremendously, I have found so much of myself through God and through trust.  I have even fallen in Love.  Funny I would write about love, love lost but honestly I never knew what love was until now and it is truly a blessing. I have so much new poetry and I have grown in skill...i think.  I look forward to reading these old ass messages, some with ppl saying they love my work which is crazy to me because I went though this long period of thinking I have no talent and just stop writing and sharing my wo

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black-diva

Apr 2, 2007

Finally

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OMG I havent been on in such a long time!!!!!!!  It feels like a breath of fresh air to be back on Deviantart!  but i have so many deviations to look at

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black-diva

Jan 12, 2007

Challenge

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So Today is my BIRTHDAY :cake: I turned 19 ahhhh I'm getting older meaning I will have to get my life together and really think about my years to come!  This is my last year as a teen and I'm somewhat excited.  I'm so behind on my deviantart but I'm going to read every single deviation. And thats my word. lol I finished #5 of the challenge check it out and Please give me suggestions on how to improve This is a challenge to whom it suits. And yes I challenge you. This is the 100 poem/story challenge. Complete the list below. Please make sure to copy whole journal (list and rules below this point) the point of this challenge is to test and i

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Apanaki

Jan 23, 2008

I know i have been MIA but I'm trying to make a come back. Girl how have you been? wow! I have been caught up on life but it's good to be missed. Hope to chat with you soon. Keep on writing.

RawEm0tion Feb 14, 2007

Someone left you some V-Day love!

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Today is love your friends day. Send this to all your friends and me if I am 1. If you get 7 back, then you are a TRUE FRIEND... ------------------------------------

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send this heart to everyone you care about including me if you care. See how many times you get this, if you get a dozen your love'd

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Jul 28, 2006

I've been posting on my other DA name: LovzPoet
It seemed more appropriate!!!! ^^

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Jul 27, 2006

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Jul 23, 2006

Thanks so much for the

on "The Girl"!!